I’ve been snowed in and battling against cabin fever and a lot of anxiety about fighting a company that refuses to return my $40,000 on a barndominium I was told would not cost much more than the deposit. I’ve joined a group of 165 other victims and instead of blogging, I’ve been helping write letters to the FTC and the FBI! To compound it all, I’ve had a lot of anxiety about getting my house listed for sale and moving to Tennessee with 5 dogs, 3 cats, and two friends whose lives keep doing a bungee jump into the Twilight Zone.

To satisfy one itch, I attended a live panel discussion on Marcion and text analysis of early Christian writing. It was something my dad (1904-1987) would have killed to have lived to attend. He tasked me with only a couple of things that he wanted me to achieve in life. Figure out if there was any truth in Christianity or any religion for that matter, and seek the meaning of life and find a way not to get reincarnated. 

Most parents want their little girls to grow up to get married and have a happy home life and have children. Not my dad! Use all your resources and intelligence and paranormal abilities to break out of the prison! My dad was way cool.

My mother didn’t seem to care what I did in my life so long as I was resourceful and used all my talents. She also didn’t seem to care if I ever had a normal life and trust me I have NOT led a normal life.

And so i decided to use one of my purchases to see if I could satisfy one of the objectives. Benebel Wen, who I swear is the greatest genius and best writer I’ve ever found who is also very generous with her genius, created the Spirit Keeper’s Tarot. If you purchase, it you get a PDF of what’s called the Book of Maps and another PDF called the Book of Readings.

I cannot find enough superlatives in ANY language to describe why these two PDFs are a must read. Buy yourself Adobe Professional just so you can navigate with ease and because if holding a pen is painful, you can type instead. If you can use a pen, follow the instructions for having the works professionally printed, have them bound and use them as journals.

Page 306 in the Readings triggered a kind of soul retrieval. It transported me back to a day sitting at my desk in my bedroom as a 14 year old. That 14-year old was, by the way, a pretty amazing teen. I appeared normal and I dressed conservatively, but deep inside was a Wednesday Addams wishing to get out and play the cello!

Take note (sorry another pun) that Wednesday’s dance scene and her cello scenes each went viral. THE POWER of music and dance! And color. PAINT IT BLACK?????

So back to page 306. Benebel has synthezied (oh dear here comes another flash back and a bad memory. The fellow who helped me get all my late husband’s expensive possessions out of Vegas turned around and STOLE priceless items – one of which was a $5,000 Manley Stingray amplifier! The Notorious Doc, you see, was into electronic music and we used to talk, not for hours, but for at least an hour at a time about wanting a MOOG synthesizer. And if you’re confused, I sure was. I found an interview with Wendy Carlos when she was obviously a female and then I found this and discovered she was an early transgender. Never knew anything about her/him/them before. But I did have and I think I still own Switched on Bach. I also have PDQ Bach but that’s a different flashback.

But seriously, I will get to page 306 right NOW!

Just gaze at it! Absorb it’s brilliance into your very essence! Tarot, I Ching, music and astrology all rolled into one and she has a chapter on MEDICAL Astrology in case you were hesitating on buying her works.

And it was this page that brought back my attempts to engage with other musicians back in 2015 when I discovered this:

AUGGHH September 3, 2025. The video by Kris Lennox “Hidden Geometry – deadmau5 and the Purcell Code has vanished. It’s listed as private which makes no sense because Kris’s works are all public. I just wrote to him. Praying he restores it.

Oh that’s right, you might know this but my 14-year-old self was the choir piano accompanist, sang in the choir, was in a gifted and talented group that sang and danced in music assemblies, studied concert organ with Donald Dumler (1938-2016) piano with concert pianist, Paul Kueter, played the viola and violin, and would go on to teach piano for years. She/I briefly studied flamenco guitar and she really wanted to be an ethnomusicologist. It’s back then that I started collecting instruments from all over the world; many of which the late Notorious Doc destroyed in one of his rage attacks to beat me into a depression I had to fight to stay sane. So, I am, by nature, a musician!

Enough of my backstory, I promised my friend, Ännie Schade that i would get my act together and use frequencies – singing bowls, color charts, etc. to fight her never-ending night terrors. So, let’s CIRCLE back to Pythagoras.(That’s another pun and it was intended.)

And let’s move forward to all the Facebook and TikTok videos about how the Nazis imposed the 440Hz upon the world. They didn’t. Click on the screenshot to read more. 

However, there are experiments with various frequencies for healing in addition to all the videos on mantras and chanting. Oh and you can also use frequencies to make someone sick and in some cases to flat out kill a human. We knew a guy who did this. Like I said, I did not live a normal ordinary Leave it to Beaver life.

And don’t forget all the experiments with plants and water and music!

Sorry, I meant to stay on topic, I really did!

MEMORIES OF MY PAST

And if I were still competing in figure skating, I would have knocked myself out to imitate this routine!

And when I get to Tennessee I’m getting my piano fixed and I’m buying a xylophone!

And I haven’t even gone into my research and my 1986 New Jersey $15,000 Governor’s Teacher’s Grant which enabled me to publish my Color-Coded Sentence Builder which has since been plagiarized several times.

So stay tuned (oh this is just way too many puns) where I connect the dots between music, color, frequencies, and grammar! Yup, I’ve started back in the 70s and I can finally SYNTHESIZE it all. Assuming I get snowed in again and I’m not packing and stressing myself out.

If you thought this was like going through a maze, that’s okay, please write a comment. Contribute to the discussion. Trigger a memory. I’m trying to jettison thousands of years of karma before I check out.