I’m taking a day to catch up on household chores while still trying to work on my book as preparation for whatever Judge Thomas Willard Henderson, IV decides in the lawsuit Armstrong Steel filed against me in Arapahoe County, Colorado 2025CV31315.
I just got a nudge to do a reading on the case using Benebel Wen’s Spirit Tarot Keeper deck.
Benebel suggests you ask WHO is “here” to help with the reading or give you a reading.
I shuffled the deck and the first card was:
The symbolism of the Six of Orbs is that of social justice! The balancing scales themselves showed up to “supervise” the reading!
Next is the Rogue and no image better fits what I’m doing.
“The Rogue is the spirit of the trickster present in the matter at hand. There is the energy of radicalism and nonconformity here, of being an agitator. It is achieving what you want by a means that may not be socially accepted.”
“Appearing in the skies is Athena, goddess of wisdom and the just war, another daughter of Zeus, and patron goddess of Athens. She wields her father’s aegis, now adorned with the severed head of Medusa. She is the Athena Promachos, the bronze statue upon the Acropolis, come to life. . . . To fully reap the opportunity that is about to be presented to you, you must take decisive action. There must be an alliance between the mind and voice (Athena, Mercury) and the physical proactive pursuit (Artemis, Sagittarius).
Yes, opportunity is inbound, but you must meet it halfway and physically demonstrate your Will.
In my illustration of the Eight of Scepters card, there is a suggestion of conflict, one that will require a reconciliation of differences, an alliance of disparate aspects. Per astrological dignities, under Sagittarius, Mercury is in Detriment. When the good arrives, so, too, will the bad. As well-received as the incoming news will be, it will also bring with it unforeseen consequences and challenges. Overall, the Eight of Scepters is a welcomed omen. You will hit the target you’ve been aiming at.
I will take this as a message to organize all the research I have done. Make sure I do not ramble. Double check each paragraph for typos and grammar.
I fight on behalf of all the other 300 plus victims of Armstrong Steel. But I also fight for MYSELF, my LIFE, my right to be HEARD and to be have everything I have lost to Armstrong Steel restored along with punitive damages so I can live out my life in peace!
As those who follow me on Facebook, TikTok, and on my Substack blog know, Armstrong Steel Sued Me for defamation in what’s called a Strategic Lawsuit Against Public Participation (SLAPP) lawsuit on June 2. The year before they sued me for breach of contract and forced me into arbitration.
Benebel Wen is, in my opinion, the most advanced occultist on the planet. Yes, there are gurus who I have not met, although I have met world-renowned ones, etc. There are psychics and mediums and great teachers. But, Benebel has a gift that almost none of the “greats” have and that is the ability to write about subjects that are impossible to digest. When she sent out an email saying she wasn’t going to offer her day planner for 2026, my heart sank. I bought the custom planner in 2023 and then life hit the fan, spun out of control, and I never got to immerse myself in it.
So, when she wrote that her followers all clamored for her and begged her to offer it, she did. I immediately took advantage of the offer. Then Armstrong Steel’s lawsuit started taking up every waking hour and waking me up in the middle of the night. James, Benebel’s husband, and a really great guy, sent me the planner and covers in an email in October and I didn’t see it. I wrote the other day, and today he resent everything plus a link to Drop Box.
At the same time, Joey Yap whose free course I took this summer, emailed a link to his video about the Fire Horse. I’m a Green Wood Horse. Joey started talking about the Baron.
“The Crusade helps with higher calling to lead not just for profit but for principle. Crusade transforms ambition into advocacy. When your leadership serves other people, the universe fights beside you”.I put in my court filings that I had invoked the Goddess Ma’at which I can only imagine flew past them just like her feather.
OMG that’s EXACTLY what Benebel Wen’s Spirit Keeper Tarot readings keep telling me when I do a reading for myself and I ask which “sentient being” wishes to tell me something and if possible tell me something to lessen my anxiety about being forced to represent myself “pro se” because I can’t afford an attorney – and please don’t comment about Legal Aid. I cover all that in my Substack blog.
What I have been fighting for is for ALL of the victims of Armstrong Steel to be heard in court and for them to get their deposits back and for Armstrong Steel to be investigated and prosecuted for consumer fraud. So that fits. What’s even “scarier” is that my DAY PILLAR is the Metal Rooster!
According to ziweibazifengshui “Officer Charm (官符)–Guan Fu star points to some legal complications. One needs to be extra sharp when signing documents and contracts to avoid being caught up in an in-escapable disadvantageous deal. The Barrier (的煞)–De Sha indicates that the subject faces court cases or lawsuits, being robbed (The $400 Paint Sprayer, my spare truck key fob, and my Jeep’s catalytic converters, plus tools – walked off) or plundered. It is also indicative of harming or countering relatives or suffering from muscle problems (I get leg cramps). The Flying Charm star (飞符) – Fei Fu connotes being restrained, restricted or held hostage by thugs or brigands (When the ancient Chinese wrote this, they didn’t have a word for corporate fraudsters). The individual would have problems with documentation (do you know how many law journal articles I’ve downloaded or how many mistakes I made uploading “motions” to the court) and personal effects or would be careless in handling them. He is also likely to face fines, penalties and forfeiture, taxes and duties. Also means
What really sucks is I have a HUGE diverse occult library (not that it’s worth that much – no first editions or anything like that – books depreciate worse than cars), and I had to box it all up when I put the house on the market. That cut me off from a major resource. Benebel’s I Ching masterpiece is still in a box.
And I haven’t had the peace of mind to do the meditations, visualizations, or shamanic work I was doing before Armstrong Steel sued me! It was bad enough that Brian Thomas Mott who I am finally naming because he fled Elko, Nevada for Seattle, stole all my gold coins, my coin collection – Silver has soared recently, my gold jewelry and my late husband’s Tibetan kapala skull and his anatomical skulls he bought when he was doing his neurosurgeryresidency.
I was still trying to get my mind pieced together after it shattered when I unlocked the late Harry Leo Duran’s phone and discovered our entire life’s savings was gone, he owed over $150,000 in credit card debt, hadn’t paid the mortgages, our Verizon bill, nor the rent on his apartment! Plus, I found all the porn he stared in.
Wood feeds Fire. I have NO water element in my BaZi Chart. I’m a Gemini with a Gemini rising sign/ascendant and Mercury is in Gemini.
The judge gave Armstrong Steel’s attorney a chance to reply to my Motion for Reconsideration with a deadline of this coming Friday, January 2. When and IF he files, I have 7 days to respond.
I have already prepared a 10-page, Times Roman 12 font (court mandated font) double spaced legal brief assuming anything I am able to write without EVER stepping foot inside a law school or being on jury duty or sitting in a court room for a trial qualifies as such. (I did attend an arraignment for two friends in March and a sentencing hearing on July 16 which was a trip and a half. – I never expected to pick someone up from Jail once they got released!)
The part about gossip could fill more pages than most books. Those who heard the gossip (meaning they read it on Facebook or at the casinos, or on the “street” or read the twisted pathological lies spewed by Mott only need double check with those who were there.If you screwed someone over, don’t go blaming the victim.
I’ve had a bridle on, a bit in my mouth, and I’ve been kept in a corral for almost my whole life. In 2026, I plan on bucking off anyone or anything that tries to prevent me from jumping the fence and burning the truth out of everyone.
An article in the International Journal of Clinical and Health Psychology (Rothe, Vega, Torres, Soler, & Pazos, 2005) offers some clues. Horses have been used in Animal Assisted Therapy (AAT) since the early 1970s. In equine-facilitated psychotherapy, interacting with horses helps clients explore their feelings. Keenly aware of emotional energies, horses sense what we’re feeling, sometimes better than we do. With a few well-chosen words and a forced smile, we may be able to hide our real feelings from another person. We may even hide our own deeper feelings from ourselves. But we cannot fool a horse. Horses can sense emotions that lurk beneath the surface of our awareness and mirror them back to us, showing us what we have been avoiding. And like Rogerian therapists, horses are honest and present, responding openly without pretense. You know where you stand with a horse.
If I can find it again, I watched a video this past week that said that recently, people are suddenly “finding” horses and taking up riding, I’ll update this post. I thought it was on YouTube, I’ve searched Facebook reels, and TikTok, and I’m not finding it. I thought I shared it. Not finding it. Until I do, watch these:
On May 31, 2025 I worked through Blind Zac The All Father’s instructions for the New Moon in Taurus. Figured all would work out. At 4 pm Pacific Time, on June 10, the day before I had to leave for Salt Lake City so I could fly to Boston, then Dublin, and then Berlin to tour the new Wooga studios,the door bell rang and it was a process server with ANOTHER Lawsuit filed by Armstrong Steel; this time for defamation and a demand for $100,000 and a court injunction to scrub my posts basically from Facebook and Substack.
I replied to 2025CV31315 with what I thought was a Motion to Strike but Colorado’s 18th Judicial Court Judge Thomas Willard Henderson, IV (yes the FOURTH) denied the motion because I didn’t cite the law in the motion. I thought I had. I resubmitted what is commonly called an Anti-SLAPP (Strategic Lawsuit Against Public Participation) and it’s now pending a response from Armstrong Steel and then I get to reply to that.I filed another motion. I asked the court to appoint me an attorney because I can’t afford the $10,000 retainer fee much less the $350 or $450 or $750 an hour attorneys charge.
Today the mail was delivered to my rural mailbox. It was dated July 17, but because I live in the middle of nowhere, it came today.The mailboxes and lockers are located in a pull off by the Spring Creek fire department 4.7 miles from my house. I only pick up my mail if I see something in the USPS Informed Delivery scanned images that arrive each day via email that is important enough for me to leave the house. I have two routes to get out of my neighborhood. One goes towards the marina and Lamoille and the other goes out to Lamoille Highway and you can turn left and head towards Elko. If I don’t HAVE to go anywhere, I don‘t.
“The motion/proposed order attached hereto: DENIED.The Court is in receipt of the attached Motion for Appointment of Counsel filed by Defendant Barbara Ruth Campbell (“Defendant Campbell”). The Civil Pro Bono Project is not available in the 18th Judicial District, nor does the 18th Judicial District otherwise have available attorneys that a judicial officer can appoint to represent civil litigants on a pro bono basis. For this reason, Defendant Campbell’s Motion is DENIED“.
This is not quite as bad as it seems. It supports all my research and hours on the phone trying to find an attorney that if you can’t afford an attorney and you’re sued, well you’re screwed. You have to represent yourself and very few people will ever even try. I’m not one of those.
I am going to order Ryan McCarl’s book, and one other book on how to argue in court and keep on fighting.
Which is why I hope that tonight I can watch Yasmin Bolland’s recording of her Dark Moon ceremonyand do some serious visualization.
So let’s begin with Zac’s latest video. He starts with talking about how he was homeless or on disability for most of his adult life and he is now living in Hawaii and although not “wealthy” has a condo with a balcony on the beach – that’s not cheap. Plus, he has several businesses. You create what you want on the New Moon and launch it on the Lion’s Gate (August 8).
Zac says your Inner ChildIS your Higher Self and the New Moon is Leo will be a rebirthing of your Inner Child/Higher Self letting the true version of yourself manifest what you want. Plus, Zac says the chart for August 8 is what’s called a Kite.
Word Press is now allowing me to link to Cafe Astrology. According to that site “The configuration of aspects formed when points of a chart form a Grand Trine, and two of them sextile a fourth point or points”. I recommend you Google Cafe Astrology and look at the examples.
At the top is Mercury Retrograde in Leo.
“As Venus travels through and leaves Gemini, and joins Jupiter in that conjunction in Cancer, it will be bending the North Node of Destiny in Pisces. Venus Bending the North Node of Destiny in Pisces only happens every 18 years.
I don’t have Pisces in any of my houses which is a tad disturbing because Zac says that’s the house which will give you insight into which direction your destiny will be found. Of course, I AM 71 years old so maybe I don’t have a destiny at this point.
Leo is in my third house and that’s where rebirthing will take place because it’s where the Lion’s Gate will manifest everything one desires using Sirius to make it instantaneous.
“The third house covers communication, such as writing, speaking, editing, research, and translation.The third house also rules code writing and digital forms—a website, app, electronic game development, social media, and podcasts. The third house also covers teaching, lecturing, and public speaking. Thinking, perception, reflection, and the gathering of facts all come under the third house.
The third house rules negotiation and is the home of all contracts and agreements, journalism and documentary work, and the reporting of news. This house is based in facts. (Other houses in the horoscope cover creativity and imagination.) The ancient astrologers felt the ability to communicate clearly was so important, they designated the topic to an entire house of the horoscope, equal to the other houses”.
Considering the fact that I have asked Senator Catherine Cortez Masto and Senator Jackie Rosen to have me testify on the Senator Floor for passage of the Forced Arbitration Injustice Repeal Act and the Federal Anti-SLAPP Act, I guess this is a good thing.
Cancer is in my 2nd house that’s where love and abundance will come from.The second house, which is also called house of value, is all about possessions, money, material things, earnings and expenditures. It signifies the way someone attracts or repels money, and also the way that he or she chooses to spend it. One’s values on ownership is also expressed here, as well as one’s system of values. The second house is traditionally ruled by Taurus and its ruling planet Venus (see last link in the reading list).
Um, I will keep my mouth shut because I don’t want to jinx this.
Pay close attention to what Zac says about the star Sirius.
The next video to watch is one by Joey Yap uploaded on July 20, 2025. Click on the description of the short and read “Not everything that looks “bad” is actually working against you. In Feng Shui, we’re often told to avoid the negative stars. But sometimes, those are the ones that shake things up just enough to create real change. Sometimes, the real issue is misalignment between your space, energy, and goals. This training helps you get them working together again”.
Tomorrow on the New Moon on plan on clicking and watching his free training.
In April 2023 I was so excited. I had decided to get out of Nevada and move to the woods in Tennessee. I got a phone call from a sales representative working at Armstrong Steel and like hundreds of others fell for the lies and the high pressured sales tactics. You can read about that on my Substack page “Armstrong Steel Sued Me” if you want to feel your blood pressure burst veins in your head.
Instead of living in the woods and working out in a Fitmax pool and going to healers and enjoying life, I’m stuck in Nevada responding to one of Armstrong Steel’s corporate attorneys and trying to figure out what the District Court in Arapahoe County, Colorado wants me to do to convince the judge in my Case #2025CV161 to grant me a day in court to let me argue why the award procured by fraud should be vacated. Trying to represent myself without an attorney (because instead of manifesting abundance i.e. money), I manifested a lot of stomach acid and sleepless nights.
OR did I? Well, stomach acid for sure.
There are a lot of astrologers on TikTok and YouTube and Facebook. I am a fan of Yasmin Boland, but I stumbled upon a fast and I mean FAST talking one-eyed astrologer/numerologist on TikTok called The Blind Zac.
TikTok sucks in many ways, but I do urge you to get a piece of paper or open the link on a computer and take notes. Zac warns his followers to get prepared for June 9, 2025. He starts by asking if your life has been #%*& since November 2024. I’d back up to when Armstrong Steel sued me in August, but in November the arbitration was causing immense stress so I guess this fits. Zac then asks about your love life and then asks “Can’t get your money right no matter how hard you try?”
Starting on June 9, 2025, for the first time in 12 years Jupiter is moving into Cancer. Twelve years ago (between June 26, 2013 and July 16, 2014) Jupiter was in the sign of Cancer. That actually, for me, was no different as far as stress goes. My precious 4.5 pound Pomeranian was murdered the Sunday after Thanksgiving that year and I wanted to move as far away from here as possible. At the same time, my late husband wanted to quit his fabulous job and move to New Jersey to take a job that paid a lot less just because he hated working in Elko.He had handed in his letter of resignation and when the move fell through he had to get another job in a hurry. The hospital hired him and for a brief while we were financially well off. I was stuck here, however.
Jupiter is exalted in Cancer “meaning it thrives in this sign and expresses its energies with ease and abundance. Cancer, ruled by the Moon, is associated with emotional security, family, home, and intuition. Together, Jupiter in Cancer symbolizes growth through nurturing, compassion, and emotional bonds. This placement encourages you to embrace comfort, care, and the wisdom found in your feelings”.
And this is from my chart. The second house is where you value cash, property, possessions and self-esteem, material wealth, and whatever else you value.
I guess this all makes sense since I’ll be fighting for my property and possessions in court against a company that’s been sued repeatedly for consumer fraud with a history of cheating customers out of “non-refundable” deposits.
Jupiter is also going to be forming two sextiles. One with Venus and Taurus and the other with Mars and Leo.Zac says that the way to take advantage of these sextiles is to “step into your authenticity”. I link to Meg Lyons, PCC‘s blog post below on just how to do that.
Mars represents forward momentum and passion. Leo represents who you TRULY are “when all illusions are stripped away”. At the same time there is a Neptune and Saturn conjunctionin Aries which is happening for the first time since the year 1703.From looking at the events on Wikipedia for at that year, I’m not sure that’s a good thing.
“Saturn is the planet that represents karma and it governs the physical world and the hardest challenges you have to face and the hardest lessons you have to learn”.
Saturn – SHANI DEV in the Hindu pantheon is a fascinating planet.Saturn was at 3°47 retrograde in Scorpio in my Sixth House when I was born. In the Hay House Astrology Course chart (I took Yasmin’s class several years back when I still could afford to do so), Yasmin writes “Saturn represents your sense of responsibility and limitation, how you react to setbacks, where you are most fearful and feel insecure, indicating where you will learn the most important lesson of your life, which is indicative of your greatest strength“.
The sixth house, by the way, is the House of daily work, health and routines, being of service to others, alternative health, job situation. Well THAT sucks because I’m trying to fight Armstrong Steel to get my deposit back and to vacate the arbitration award procured by fraud, but also to get the deposits back for all the other victims which forces me to feel responsible for all those who were too afraid to fightbecause corporate attorneys are ruthless and unethical and relentless and heartless. They will milk customer’s bank accounts dry on behalf of their employersby forcing them to pay for attorneys Read all the books and articles by Gerry Spence and you’ll see what I mean.
Zac then points out Neptune is the planet of the inner world, the inner most subconscious deepest dreams and hidden desires. Well that helps explains my friend who has Pisces as an ascendant and why it’s impossible to read him. With Saturn and Neptune conjunct in Aries, the sign that represents the FIRE of CREATION, it is the portal through which we bring things from the inner world to the outer world. This Saturn and Neptune Conjunct in Aries is forming a sextile with PLUTO RETROGRADE in Aquarius!
PLUTO – Yikes “Pluto represents trust and abuse of trust, control, obsessions, and power struggles. Pluto is the force of intense transformation indicative of the most secretive side of your nature”. Zac says that Pluto is the planet that represents wealth, transformation, death, and rebirth cycles”. It’s going to be retrograde in Aquarius the sign which represents the people.
Pluto was at 22°41′ of Leo in my 3rd house on the day I was born. I was married to a psychotic, violently abusive physician until he committed suicide on November 8, 2021. I was burglarized by a man I rescued (see previous posts) who stole all my gold coins, my grandparents gold rings, a solid gold bracelet, my rare coin collection, and a rare Tibetan kapala skull plus all my late husband’s human skulls he bought while in med school. He stole so much, I almost lost my mind.
The third house is for communications, siblings and neighbours, trips, transport, your mind.
Since there are 10 planets (counting Pluto and the sun and moon), some signs also share the same ruling planet.
Aries: ruled by Mars
Taurus: ruled by Venus
Gemini: ruled by Mercury
Cancer: ruled by the moon
Leo: ruled by the sun
Virgo: ruled by Mercury
Libra: ruled by Venus
Scorpio: traditionally ruled by Mars, but ruled by Pluto in modern astrology
Sagittarius: ruled by Jupiter
Capricorn: ruled by Saturn
Aquarius: traditionally ruled by Saturn, but ruled by Uranus in modern astrology
Pisces: traditionally ruled by Jupiter, but ruled by Neptune in modern astrology
When I was born, Aquarius was in mid-heaven and not in a house. “Those with their Midheaven in Aquarius are inspirers who, when young, found their inspiration in great revolutionary minds, inventors, and philanthropists. Regardless of the rest of your birth chart, if you have an Aquarius Midheaven, you’ll gain status as a social, friendly, intelligent, artistic, but quirky individualist who’s full of out-of-the-box ideas and imaginative solutions“. I always thought of my self as eclectic, but quirky fits – bat poop crazy is also apropos.
Zac then ratchets up his message. In order to take advantage of all the universe has to offer you have to let go of people and things that do not have your back even if they have the best intentions for you. This gobsmacked me because it makes one or at least me rather paranoid.
Add to all of this we’re in the YEAR OF THE WOOD SNAKE and am a Wood Horse. 2025 is also a 9 year. “2025 marks the end of a major chapter. In Numerology, 2025 is considered a 9 Universal Year (2+0+2+5=9), and 9 represents completion and the conclusion of a cycle before beginning again with a fresh 1, as we will in 2026 (2+0+2+6=10, and 1+0=1).
A 9 Universal Year also marks the halfway point in what’s called a Push Cycle. Made up of years 8, 9, 1, a Push Cycle is marked by a crescendo of power and experience in the 8 Universal Year, followed by the acclimation and completion achieved in the 9, before beginning something new in the 1″. 2016 was the year the Notorious Doc moved from Spring Creek to Las Vegas and only came home a few times, the last to bring up two barely weaned pit bull litter mates on September 22, 2018. He left for Vegas the next day and I NEVER, THANK ALL OF THE GODS, saw him ever again!We stayed married, but thankfully, he never made good on his vow to drive up and kill meto get the equity out of my house.
Shed the old ways, shed the old timeline, and step into a new version of ourselves. I had hoped to be living in Crossville, Tennessee with a FitMax pool by now I would have shed 50 pounds or more. I guess I’ll just have the KMART inflatable pool erected in the backyard and try to shed 10 pounds this summer.I MOST DEFINITELY want to shed the old timeline of living in fear all the time. And I want to my books published and my YouTube and TikTok and Instagram accounts monetized as I produce content everyday for a global audience.
If we shed our skins and be authentic, still not sure I buy into that concept, sounds too much like some sort of Human Resources (HR) gimmick, then Venus in Taurus will be activated. I don’t have planets in Taurus in my chart. Taurus is, however, in my 12th houseand it’s empty – no planets.Venus is in my second house in Cancer.
Zac then goes on to instruct everyone to pull up their natal/birth charts. Which house do you have Cancer in? Mine as you see above is in my second house. “This is someone capable to work from home, or someone who goes with the flow and relies on destiny to bring them their wealth. In general, this might not be such a strong position if the Moon isn’t very strong, but gives the ability to find incredible joy in food, cooking, and family gatherings”.
I live to eat I do not eat to live!
Which house do you have Leo in? Mine is in the third house with the planet Pluto as mentioned above. Which house do you have Taurus in (mine is in the 12th), Aries in (11th), and Aquarius in (9th)?
Cancer being in my 2nd house is going to see a major upheaval in my home life or cooking. Since I spend most of my time on the computer, I hope this means I will get published soon and my international following will skyrocket.
Taurus being in my empty 12th house (which is the house of secrets and fantasies) is through which a lot of financial abundance is going to come and assuming I will ever have a “love life” is going to take a huge leap forward.I need to be really careful what I visualize and not let my subconscious run amok that’s for sure.
Leo being in my 3rd house of Language, Communication, Technology, Transport, Early Education, Data Processing, and Perception. Considering the fact that I’m Wooga’s June’s Journey Destination Berlin contest winner, and I’m going to be doing a series of videos and a website about fan fiction, I guess this is spot on.Leo is the sign, Zac says is where I need to “step into my authenticity”.
Aries is in my 11th house of Community, Friendships, Wishes, Charity. and Earned Wealth. This is the house where Saturn will be and where I will have to make a lot of hard decisions.On the plus side it will be the house I’ll do most of manifesting through. FRIENDSHIP and wishes and definitely charity towards others is how I have manifested my whole life.
Aquarius is in my 9th house of Ideology and Worldview, Higher Learning, Travel, 2nd Life Partner (I can’t make this up, and I’m NOT going to talk about that part of my life.), Spirituality and Religion, and
Law
Good Grief!This is when Zac asks who are you sharing your abundance with? Now I feel sick.
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