YouTube’s top recommended video caught my attention. The comments to all these videos were a whole new venue for finding people who have experienced the same thing.

When I went to Las Vegas for the last time to sign papers to sell my condo, I met with David Veliz, the painter whose work the late fiend from hell, the Notorious Doc had bought. He asked me about NPCs. I had heard Dolores Cannon mention NPCs in pasing. She may have been the first to have discussed the idea in depth. The terms you’ll see are Spiritless Humans / NPCs (Non-Playable Characters) / Backdrop People / Backfill People – for me when you’re dreaming they are the people you see who do not talk to you nor do you interact with them. You see some of them clearly or and some are fuzzy. Like the furniture in a room or landscaping. They move but they’re just props on a stage in your subconscious or in the dream realm.

I read Gurdieff years ago and agreed at the time, that many of the people you see are not real.

“A considerable percentage of the people we meet on the street are people who are empty inside, that is, they are actually already dead. It is fortunate for us that we do not see and do not know it. If we knew what a number of people are actually dead and what a number of these dead people govern our lives, we should go mad with horror.” – G.I. Gurdjieff G.I. Gurdjieff In In Search Of The Miraculous: Fragments Of An Unknown Teaching by P.D.Oupensky

I found this on Reddit.

Spiritless Humans / NPCs (Non-Playable Characters) / Backdrop People / Backfill People
byu/sagittariuscraig inRetconned

Chakra Differences between Spirited and the Spiritless

There is also a difference between spirited and spiritless in what chakras they have. Chakras are vortical energy centers linking soul with body, and linking spirit and body through the soul. Each center coincides positionally with the major glands of the physical body, and each serves a different behavioral function. . . . .The spiritless, however, have no need for the higher chakras, namely the heart, crown, and third eye chakras because these are the ones that exclusively link to spirit.

And the writer goes on to say this is why you sense these people are “empty”.

In my Tell All Book about the Notorious Doc, I delve into the what it means to live with a narcissist. This Reddit post by sagittariuscraig was a great find because he copied and pasted this article in full.

But it was this video below and the others that popped up as recommended, that made me realize that a lot of people are “seeing” the same thing. My dad would have called them “animated corpses wired for sound”. I thought that phrase he pulled out of thin air was hilarious. My dad was very wry. Until today. Today I realized my dad was speaking almost as if he were reading the Akashic Records at times. He had “sight”, but he hid it really well. Did he “SEE” me one day decades after he died writing this post? SOULESS humans = animated corpses wired for sound! Damn!

Let me know in the comments what you have “seen” in supermarkets, at the bank, where you work, where you go to school, or if you can read from photos or from videos, what you have seen?

Think about all the Zombie movies and tv series and video games. WHY the fascination with the WALKING DEAD?

The late Harry Leo Duran, M.D., Ph.D., Mph went through a period of religious fanaticism which fluctuated between him being conflicted about “keepIng” his Buddhist thangkas and HIS magical items and rationalizing that they were art and not demonic. That did not stop him, however, from demanding that I toss out all my oracle cards and runes and anything a priest would want to burn if we lived back in the 1600s.

In my Tell All Book which I hope to publish once I get to Tennessee, I write

“One of Harry’s friends called me and asked me flat out if the photo of the NOTORIOUS DOC tattoo was photoshopped. No, it was there. The boar’s head is in several photos. The black triangle was a tattoo he had put on in 1995. I had sent him a talisman from the 1985 Egyptian Way of the Cartouche deck by Murray Hope. He showed the tattoo to me all smiles. I was taken back. Once again, he abused a magical symbol meant for protection.”

That 1985 book with its accompanying deck of oracle cards was a Christmas gift from my mother. It was often more accurate than not and I loved it. I went through an Egyptian period where I couldn’t satisfy my need to transport myself back to the 18th century including the purchase of 18th century scarabs. My favorite book in grade school was

It was written in 1941 and I found it in the school library. One of the reasons why the National Library Association has failed the American public is the fact that our public libraries do not have equal access to the many subscription services sold to universities and large urban libraries. Our Elko library does not have a subscription to The New York Times and I am not paying to read the review from 1941. Kirkus lets me see this much. Eloise’s book should be required reading if you ask me. I fear it’s been lost in the dust bin of time.

And my cartouche cards almost ended up in the waste paper basket between my bed and my night table one day when I got a phone call that Father Mark was coming and Harry wanted ALL my witchy poo stuff GONE. I couldn’t bear to throw the book out. It’s rather thin and I figured I could hide it behind other books. I remembered throwing the cards out, but I could not remember what happened next.

I swore I had thrown them out. So many of my prized possessions had been dashed to the tile floors or hurled across a room or stomped on, my mind lost track.

A few weeks after Harry died the fellow I rescued who was helping me with the estate sales came flying into my room holding up one of the cards from the deck. I flipped out. I ran to the kitchen and he had the cards and the box. WHERE OMG WHERE did you find these? Looking at me like I had dementia and needed a nursing home sooner than later, Brian replied that he found them in the bookcases downstairs.

Now I can’t get up off the floor anymore – degrading lumbar 5 operation from 1999 plus osteoarthritis, so I caught myself before I could collapse and just sob. I staggered to my chair at the dining table and balled like a baby. Brian got a tad pissy. Why was a crying and what was the meaning of the ANKH?

LIFE! Brian had found part of my soul and I had no memory of hiding the deck even from myself!

The cards had been out of print and I knew I couldn’t replace them. And there they were. I raced down the hall and got my book and did a spread and cried until I thought I would faint. 

Brian also found my lost Kalachakra jigsaw puzzle. Alas, Harry’s ghost haunted him – Brian fell in love with all the super expensive clothes and $35 a pair underwear. He started stealing and then he started using drugs again. He moved out so he could be with a street prostitute, moved back in, then left for Tennessee. The whore broke up and left him to fend for himself. I must say he got himself a job but he’s living in Harry’s tent and is miserable. I tried to teach him how karma works and how you can’t piss off a witch. He’s learning. We keep in touch and I am still trying to heal him.

It pains me that he held one of the most incredible symbols in his hands and was eager to learn about what it meant. Unfortunately, my heart was so wounded and my body had been so bruised, I guess I just couldn’t bring forth the teacher in me at that time. 

Tracey Brown shared with me her story about tossing her tarot cards and magical tools which triggered the flashbacks about my lost deck. Her work can be found in the series

My story about Brian could not be included in Betrayed because like they say in all the Korean dramas

I don’t have a happy ending written in the stars yet. My timeline keeps jumping the tracks. I’m finishing up the K Drama suspense/romance series Demon and in it the characters say “happy ending” more times than I can count. How the Koreans latched on to a Disney concept I am not sure but my hook or by crook, I WILL have a HAPPY ENDING!

I’ve been snowed in and battling against cabin fever and a lot of anxiety about fighting a company that refuses to return my $40,000 on a barndominium I was told would not cost much more than the deposit. I’ve joined a group of 165 other victims and instead of blogging, I’ve been helping write letters to the FTC and the FBI! To compound it all, I’ve had a lot of anxiety about getting my house listed for sale and moving to Tennessee with 5 dogs, 3 cats, and two friends whose lives keep doing a bungee jump into the Twilight Zone.

To satisfy one itch, I attended a live panel discussion on Marcion and text analysis of early Christian writing. It was something my dad (1904-1987) would have killed to have lived to attend. He tasked me with only a couple of things that he wanted me to achieve in life. Figure out if there was any truth in Christianity or any religion for that matter, and seek the meaning of life and find a way not to get reincarnated. 

Most parents want their little girls to grow up to get married and have a happy home life and have children. Not my dad! Use all your resources and intelligence and paranormal abilities to break out of the prison! My dad was way cool.

My mother didn’t seem to care what I did in my life so long as I was resourceful and used all my talents. She also didn’t seem to care if I ever had a normal life and trust me I have NOT led a normal life.

And so i decided to use one of my purchases to see if I could satisfy one of the objectives. Benebel Wen, who I swear is the greatest genius and best writer I’ve ever found who is also very generous with her genius, created the Spirit Keeper’s Tarot. If you purchase, it you get a PDF of what’s called the Book of Maps and another PDF called the Book of Readings.

I cannot find enough superlatives in ANY language to describe why these two PDFs are a must read. Buy yourself Adobe Professional just so you can navigate with ease and because if holding a pen is painful, you can type instead. If you can use a pen, follow the instructions for having the works professionally printed, have them bound and use them as journals.

Page 306 in the Readings triggered a kind of soul retrieval. It transported me back to a day sitting at my desk in my bedroom as a 14 year old. That 14-year old was, by the way, a pretty amazing teen. I appeared normal and I dressed conservatively, but deep inside was a Wednesday Addams wishing to get out and play the cello!

Take note (sorry another pun) that Wednesday’s dance scene and her cello scenes each went viral. THE POWER of music and dance! And color. PAINT IT BLACK?????

So back to page 306. Benebel has synthezied (oh dear here comes another flash back and a bad memory. The fellow who helped me get all my late husband’s expensive possessions out of Vegas turned around and STOLE priceless items – one of which was a $5,000 Manley Stingray amplifier! The Notorious Doc, you see, was into electronic music and we used to talk, not for hours, but for at least an hour at a time about wanting a MOOG synthesizer. And if you’re confused, I sure was. I found an interview with Wendy Carlos when she was obviously a female and then I found this and discovered she was an early transgender. Never knew anything about her/him/them before. But I did have and I think I still own Switched on Bach. I also have PDQ Bach but that’s a different flashback.

But seriously, I will get to page 306 right NOW!

Just gaze at it! Absorb it’s brilliance into your very essence! Tarot, I Ching, music and astrology all rolled into one and she has a chapter on MEDICAL Astrology in case you were hesitating on buying her works.

And it was this page that brought back my attempts to engage with other musicians back in 2015 when I discovered this:

AUGGHH September 3, 2025. The video by Kris Lennox “Hidden Geometry – deadmau5 and the Purcell Code has vanished. It’s listed as private which makes no sense because Kris’s works are all public. I just wrote to him. Praying he restores it.

Oh that’s right, you might know this but my 14-year-old self was the choir piano accompanist, sang in the choir, was in a gifted and talented group that sang and danced in music assemblies, studied concert organ with Donald Dumler (1938-2016) piano with concert pianist, Paul Kueter, played the viola and violin, and would go on to teach piano for years. She/I briefly studied flamenco guitar and she really wanted to be an ethnomusicologist. It’s back then that I started collecting instruments from all over the world; many of which the late Notorious Doc destroyed in one of his rage attacks to beat me into a depression I had to fight to stay sane. So, I am, by nature, a musician!

Enough of my backstory, I promised my friend, Ännie Schade that i would get my act together and use frequencies – singing bowls, color charts, etc. to fight her never-ending night terrors. So, let’s CIRCLE back to Pythagoras.(That’s another pun and it was intended.)

And let’s move forward to all the Facebook and TikTok videos about how the Nazis imposed the 440Hz upon the world. They didn’t. Click on the screenshot to read more. 

However, there are experiments with various frequencies for healing in addition to all the videos on mantras and chanting. Oh and you can also use frequencies to make someone sick and in some cases to flat out kill a human. We knew a guy who did this. Like I said, I did not live a normal ordinary Leave it to Beaver life.

And don’t forget all the experiments with plants and water and music!

Sorry, I meant to stay on topic, I really did!

MEMORIES OF MY PAST

And if I were still competing in figure skating, I would have knocked myself out to imitate this routine!

And when I get to Tennessee I’m getting my piano fixed and I’m buying a xylophone!

And I haven’t even gone into my research and my 1986 New Jersey $15,000 Governor’s Teacher’s Grant which enabled me to publish my Color-Coded Sentence Builder which has since been plagiarized several times.

So stay tuned (oh this is just way too many puns) where I connect the dots between music, color, frequencies, and grammar! Yup, I’ve started back in the 70s and I can finally SYNTHESIZE it all. Assuming I get snowed in again and I’m not packing and stressing myself out.

If you thought this was like going through a maze, that’s okay, please write a comment. Contribute to the discussion. Trigger a memory. I’m trying to jettison thousands of years of karma before I check out.

I have a “friend” who stole from me. He doesn’t believe in karma. Most people do not understand what karma is nor how it works. There are some fantastic Korean dramas which depict how a past life affects this life, but I wanted to find a source which one can digest without the emotions involved in dramas.

The Late Notorious Doc had this book in his collection and our friend Mart loved it. I wanted to read it and I finally got a chance when Harry Leo Duran died. 

I’ve had it on my desk now for over a year wanting to transcribe pages 230-231. Oddly enough, I signed up for a webinar by Christopher Hareesh Wallis about the the Sutra Project which aired on December 8, 2023. 

Towards the end of the live presentation, I felt myself dissolving. I got dizzy and knew I could not continue with Christopher’s “transmission” alone in the house with 5 dogs and 3 cats and no one who could get here if anything happened to me. I staggered to my bed and lay down with the teaching still playing on my computer. I passed out when the webinar ended.

I tried listening to the replay taking a precaution this time by lying down in my bed first. That was just as unnerving as I fell asleep and started dreaming about being in one of Christopher’s classes and dissolving in front of everyone. The phone rang and jarred me awake.

How on earth is the Sutra Project connected to Mishra’s 1993 paperback and stranger yet what was I reading right before the Notorious Doc died while sitting next to the lake at South Fork while the fellow who would eventually end up stealing was metal detecting?

You guessed it! I finally decided back on November 5, 2021 to really dig into the aphorisms of Śiva which is the very same text which Christopher has translated and which he is now offering in a course where you can receive the transmissions he received. Transmissions is a next to impossible concept to grasp. It’s not telepathy. It’s as if an entire teaching is sent – transmitted – directly from the original teacher to student down through time and across space and if you are open to it, it will blast your soul.

Now one of the things about karma is if you accumulated enough merit, learning such material is easy because you learned in a past life. But the concept of karma has been terribly watered down by New Age crackpots and for most people, this life is being wasted because one cannot address the past nor current moment nor future if one has a lot of crackpot ideas floating in one’s mind.

So, let me start back at the beginning and transcribe page 226 and let you read Kamalakar Mishra’s own words published in 1993.

“In a system like Kashmir Śaivism the problem of evil becomes all the more prominent, for the incompatibility of evil with the creation of Śiva becomes conspicuous. In Kashmir Śaivism, creation is conceived of as the spontaneous outcome of the bliss (ānanda) of Śiva; it is the sportive activity (līlā) of the Lord, the cosmic dance of Națarāja. Moreover, Śiva, which literally means “the good” or “the benign”, is just the opposite of evil. Here the question arises, if Creation is the blissful play of “the benign”, where do sin and suffering come from?

And that is one of the questions I asked the minister of the United Methodist Church in Westfield, New Jersey when I had my “audience” with him prior to getting confirmed. His answer was elusive and he gave me that look adults give 13 year old snot nosed kids who see through the bullshit when they do not know the answer and just want the kid gone. He couldn’t answer it and I decided I’d spend the rest of my life finding the answers for myself. Which I did.

And in case you’re wondering, I was very quickly uninvited to parties and was not a “fun” kid. I wasn’t a fun adult either and I’m not much of a fun old lady although I did go dumpster diving and I want to go see the new Willy Wonka film on a Tuesday when the tickets are only $6, but it won’t stop snowing, so I might just have to wait for it to end up on a streaming service. I’m not just a stick in the mud. I’m not. Really, I can try to be human.

I’m going to skip ahead onto page 227 because there’s all this talk about plagiarism and using too many words from a book which violates copyright laws regarding fair use. The book is a must read if you are in the least bit in a quandary about such things.

“The sole purpose of Creation is to free the soul.” That’s on page 227. Let that sink in.

Scrolling down the page “If one merely sees evil in the world and concludes the Divine does not exist, his is too hasty a conclusion”.

The heading on page 228 reads “FREE WILL AND MORAL EVIL”!

The year 2024 has kicked off with a devastating earthquake, a bizarre fight at a Miami shopping mall, and a lot of deaths from war. Oh and volcanoes are acting up. And then there’s the Jeffrey Epstein pedophile network being exposed in tiny snippets like a Chinese water torture as if evil needs to be served in a stopper used to feed baby birds!

Mishra continues with this explanation about how Lord Śiva wants all sentient beings (I’m inserting my Buddhist perspective on this) to follow a path of goodness – Christians like to use the word righteousness. It’s the same concept. As the author progresses through his explanation we finally get to the paragraph I wanted to transcribe.

Page 230

If the innocent suffers, does it not go against the justice of God and the divine Law of Karma? . . . The Law of Karma demands that no innocent should suffer, therefore one does not suffer at the hands of an offender unless one’s own karma warrants the suffering.

YIKES. And here I will insert a story that’s all over the web for which I cannot track down a primary source.

Apparently, there are folk legends or possibly written accounts of the past lives of the major characters in the epic THE Mahābhārata.

It’s pretty gruesome. A decent man is born blind and has all of his sons killed in a single war. Why? Well, he was a despicable man centuries before and pay attention, he killed a swan and her chicks. Pay back took several lifetimes. One does have to shutter at this. It’s why you want to burn off all past life karma while alive. Otherwise you have to pay it forward or burn part of it off in HELL!

The Book of Job doesn’t do justice to the idea of misfortune. Instead Job is a lab test subject between the God of the Bible and some character who is considered an adversary. And this gets really complicated.

In the Amazon series Good Omens, Crowley is the one who is sent to destroy Job’s life but he can’t make himself do it. It’s very well done even though it’s blasphemous.

So, now that you’ve gagged and giggled, let’s get back to pages 230-231.

. . . a person may abuse his or her free will and try to harm someone, and by that act he or she may be liable to be punished for he or she is committing a sin, but however he or she may try to harm the other person, that person will not be harmed unless he or she has already committed a sin and his or her own karma justifies the suffering. The divine governance is such that one’s own previous karma, of this life or a past life, is adjusted against the suffering that one receives from an offender. 

In the divine governance it is ordained that the suffering of the so-called innocent at the hands of a tyrant becomes possible only when the previous karma ready for fructification (prarābdha karma) of the visibly innocent person is adjusted against the present suffering.

And Mishra goes on into greater detail.

In Roman Catholicism they teach that great suffering will hit you like a ton of bricks, BUT if you’ve been doing your prayers etc, it will be lessened. In Buddhism, you try to acquire merits so when that car hits you, it’s only a fender bender and you’re not crushed to death.

You will get a flat tire but karma dictates the tire will go flat in your driveway on your day off unless you’ve done bad shit and then it will blow out on a highway at high speed and you’ll get killed or maimed, etc.

Does this make sense now?

And remember what you do in this life will affect the next one and the next one on throughout time. There are techniques to BURN it all off and that’s what I’ve tried to do since I learned about it in high school. IT can be very emotionally painful. It can be physically painful. It’s not for the weak. But it’s definitely worth the effort.

The fiend from Hell aka the Notorious Doc read these books. He had great teachers. Famous ones. And yet he chose to dive head first into Hell. I will never understand why. I tried to avert his Fate and failed. Don’t know why I thought it was my role to try. Watching someone self-destruct is gut wrenching. I’ve seen it happen in other people’s lives. I try to warn them and the inevitable happens.

In my life right now I’m fighting against a very evil company that has financially ruined a lot of people. They stole $40,000 of my savings which I could not afford to lose. They did worse to others.

But, I hope that if I fight hard enough and try to encourage the other victims to try again, we will succeed. Evil has permeated the souls of so many humans over the past many thousands of years. With social media and non-stop news we see the evil oozing out of people right on the screen. The Kurukshetra War (Sanskrit: कुरुक्षेत्र युद्ध ), also called the Mahabharata War according to recent calculations took place 3,162 years ago. Assuming these calculations are correct, that’s around the same time

as Ramesses VI, 20th Dynstasty New Kingdom Egypt.

Keep in mind all these incredible great amazing civilizations are gone. We just have ruins and tattered decaying books written on papyrus (Egyptian), vellum (Roman), birch bark (Sanskrit), otomí bark (Mayan) linen, rice paper, clay, and stone. Do your best to not REPEAT negative past behavior and strive to live according to the teachings of the great masters who advised everyone to behave and live a life you will not have to atone for ever. That’s karma and Karma as you know is a REAL Bitch!