A lot has been going on in my life the past three months. I’m trying to arrange to have my new property in Tennessee prepared so I can have a house built. I found out that someone close to me stole precious items, super expensive items, irreplaceable items and a super haunted one. That alone would drive a person’s blood pressure into over time. But then I started to hear from people who had found my blog and who reached out to fill me in on the evil my late husband did.
Today, I was contacted by someone using a nom de plume. Harry, himself, had at least five. I used to write under the name Jasper. What I read in a string of comments to a blog post from May 2021 has my head spinning.
I’d like to think I don’t suffer from PTSD, per se, but I get flashbacks and they trigger bouts of nightmares and stomach “issues”. And sometimes hives.
I’ve been asked by people who read parts of my manuscript for
WHY Harry studied Sufism. Why did he give it up? How did he get involved with Nyingmapa Tibetan Buddhism? I know that answer to that. His roommate and lover in New Jersey introduced him to it. Why did he study Gnosticism? I wasn’t really sure. In fact I didn’t know. Not until today! Why did he flee and join the Roman Catholic SSPX church? He SAID he felt like his life was in ruins.
AH but WHAT didn’t I know?!
In a comment on my blog post, Les Ismore wrote that the year Harry mentioned that he was involved in multiple Sufi pursuits, Harry was also “engaged with a project called GnosticsMillenium”. Actually, Harry created that Yahoo Newsgroup and I, actually posted under the name Jasper. As Jasper I speculated that Mary Magdalene was connected to old blood lines such as the Merovingian based on readings I had found. I also wrote a lot about Rosslyn Chapel. I was super pissed with Dan Brown when he published The Da Vinci Code because it sounded like Brown had been a lurker on the newsgroup and was lifting ideas from my posts and comments to them. I’ll never know but I thought the book was badly written and the movie was stupid.
Les continued on by saying that Harry was still pursuing Baha’i interests, though ultimately leaving both that and Nizari Ismailism, and was still maintaining whatever Buddhist meditative path he was on (Yellow Hat). This needs to be fleshed out. Harry had started corresponding with an Shia Ismaili Muslim in Canada sometime before we got married in February 1997. They talked a lot on the phone. At one point this man’s house or apartment caught fire and Harry used money I had given him to send this man some money to replace items lost. Nur I think his name was.
One night I had a dream that I was at an event and was introduced to the Aga Khan (Shah Karim al-Husayni born in 1936). Harry told the group in Canada and they all flipped out, so he said. I have strange lucid dreams but for someone who really couldn’t care less about the Aga Khan nor this particular sect, it seemed odd I’d “meet” the man especially since dreaming about him is allegedly a BIG DEAL. Harry was asked to stop posting about the Ismailis when again, I only had Harry’s word for it, he was revealing the deepest secrets from the 7 levels within 7 levels of the Quran that ONLY the highest levels in the sect would know. I’ll never know if any of this was true. I just know he dropped them like hot cakes.
The next sentence I read was this:
As a fairly recent member of the T.O.S. he debated online with Aquino…
I’ve been going through a lot of shocks dealing with a lot of drama in my friend’s personal life that makes Hell look like a secluded beach resort, but this threw me into a state of UTTER SHOCK! I might as well have been kidnapped by Dr. Who’s Nemesis THE MASTER and transported back in time and Harry – by the way last night I dreamt he was STILL ALIVE – and I were back in El Paso.
T.O.S. – I hope to GOD you do NOT know what that is. I remember him getting a manuscript but I scoffed at his attempt to become a sorcerer.
TEMPLE OF SET!
If that was too fast for you, and it was way too fast,
HARRY LEO DURAN DEBATED ONLINE WITH THIS CREEP?
I KNEW our phones and emails were monitored because Harry had become friends with none other than Birgitta Jónsdóttir after she got involved with Julian Assange, BUT that pales in comparison with debating THIS thing! Click on the photo and read the article and see why I’m going to have another night of nightmares!
Les Ismore continued by saying that Harry
also mentioned the involvement with voodun..
This I remember because Harry’s roommate Chaz had gotten Harry involved in Santeria and instead of using the skulls he acquired in med school to get back into neurosurgery, he used them in a cauldron which I got rid of. The skulls only recently got stolen and I need to get them back.
I’m pretty sure this is the child’s skull I packed in a box with the 2 adults a femur and jaw bones, etc. and the box was stolen out of my garage! The police have the report and I hope the sheriff follows up.
Les goes on to write:
at one point after withdrawing from the Sun at Midnight collaboration with L. G.
Harry MADE me write a check for just shy of $5,000 to a self-publishing printer so Laurence Galian could get his manuscript published. I never got my money back.
Les continues
(they had a severe falling out over the age of M’r. G’s wife to be)
Actually, Galian triggered both of us by asking us for money and then flying off to Columbia to “try out” women in order to pick one to bring back as a kind of mail order bride except you get to have sex first. Galian bellyached about getting a rash and a fever which to us sounded like an STD and he posted it all over the newsgroup at the time. We were FURIOUS! And we said so.
Les writes further that Harry
sent material on some never before printed Bahai prophecies (another incident with Mr. N. Hazini and to a lesser degree with Ms. C Starr)
Ah, Starr! Wahid Azal only recently contacted me and mentioned Starr. Harry used to talk about her. Starr and her husband lived down the block from Harry’s family when he was in high school and she took him to the local Bahá’í meetings. Harry took me to one of their pot luck dinners and I ate all the mac and cheese while some creep oogled me in my skin tight blue and white stripped Lacoste S.A knit mini dress. I was working at Salmon Ruins in New Mexico on the archaeology dig in the summer of 1974.
along with Scientology upper grade material he had accessed somehow. He was to have taken Bayat with Sheikha F.,
Never knew ANYTHING about this at all!
but after the incident with Mr. G. over suspicions concerning the Colombian girl he may have had second thoughts, also there was
some secretive initiation in the year preceding 9-11 where something went very very awry and I suspect he eventually sought ‘refuge’ in traditional Catholicism…
WHAT THE FLAMING BLEEP?????????
“. . . at one point he picked up with an old friend with Navajo background and everything was about the new gnostic website.
He never spoke an ill word about you and seemed pretty impressed by your accomplishments and concerned over your health…
I recollect that he had two tarots cards one being the tower that had to do with an upcoming change of address, “
We bought a house DEVILS TOWER CIRCLE – I can’t make this stuff up.
“just prior to whatever circumstances that convinced him to explore Christianity (posting as QisQos), unfortunately for him a more stable and less scandal prone foundation would have been helpful…
I might mention that he was very knowledgeable concerning which groups to avoid and other than overhearing a string of creative expletives directed at the object of his ire…
I would have surmised that his most destructive obsession coincided with his exploration of the rather nihilistic practices and viewpoints of Aghori type tantra “
HOLY BLEEPING BLEEP! What on earth? One of my friends in an Aghori! I have no memory of Harry trying to get in touch with anyone, but what do I know? He did buy a book on Kashmir Saivism though which I recently dug out to transcribe a passage on karma. It is sitting next to my keyboard and then I was going to pack it!
and associations involving some unsavory group in or near to the Netherlands…
I wonder if the unsavory group was the Netherland Order of the Safi Ali Shah II and Harry getting involved with Hazrate Pir Maulana (Mawlana) Pir of the Nematollahi (Nimatullahi) Safialishahi who passed in 2016.
I am NOT going to sleep well. I wonder if Harry tried to summon a demon and half assed succeeded. He used to beat the crap out me and when he’d lunge at me his eyes would turn black like a shark’s or snake’s. I always believed he was possessed which added to the terror. It explains him going to Matins every morning and Vespers at least three times a week. Why he dragged me to confession demanding that I confess and kneel and pray the rosary EVERY DAY. Why we HAD to go to First Thursday mass and First Friday and why he beat me when I didn’t say my prayers because I was tired and wanted to just watch a stupid TV show.
I know who stole the gold from my house and who stole the skulls. He’s being tormented out of his own skull. WHAT did Harry do? What was my husband hiding? Cue Kathy Bates!
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