The above is an excerpt from the 1,112 page masterpiece of scholarship on the Eastern Orthodox and early Christian church belief that when you die, angels and demons escort you through a life review. They didn’t call it that back then. As “scientists” decide to “study”Near Death Experiences, the life review MIGHT get more people’s attention.
Alicia Young, was interviewed by Raymond A. Moody Jr, Ph.D., MD. about her book,
The idea that you will be met on the other side and made to relive your entire life both through your own “eyes” and through the “eyes” and “ears” of everyone you ever met, and possibly have every thought uttered aloud is found in other religions as well. And in each case, there are WITNESSES to every thought, word, and deed! AND a price to pay.
Ced Young has a FANTASTIC article about the Chinese Gods of Hell published on January 6, 2022 sixty (60) days after Harry Leo Duran, the Notorious Doc’s soul entered the Bardo names each judge and his role. Pay Attention!
Qinguang Wang (秦广王): does not sentence punishments but instead separates the virtuous from the sinful.
Chujiang Wang (楚江王): is responsible for punishing swindlers and violent criminals.
Songdi Wang (宋帝王): is responsible for punishing the disrespectful, the untrustworthy, and the seditious.
Wuguan Wang (五官王): is responsible for punishing tax and rent evaders, and those who were dishonest in business dealings.
Yanluo Wang (阎罗王): is responsible for punishing those who have obstructed generosity or who have slandered the monastic community.
Biancheng Wang (卞城王): is responsible for punishing the resentful and those who were disrespectful to heaven.
Taishan Wang (泰山王): is responsible for punishing rumormongers, those responsible for the separation of families, and alchemists who used corpses to make elixirs.
Dushi Wang (都市王): is responsible for punishing those who did not honor their parents and families.
Pingdeng Wang (平等王): is responsible for punishing sinners who have committed the gravest crimes.
Zhuanlun Wang (转轮王): does not sentence punishments but instead, oversees reincarnation.
In my next blog post, I’ll elaborate on an excerpt from Never Die with Your Pants Around Your Ankles about the Hindu depiction of what happens to sinners on the other side. Stay tuned. If this didn’t scare you to DEATH, the next trip will!
I NEVER let anyone take my photo. I used to be VERY VERY beautiful and VERY photogenic. Model level. Older folks gushed about how pretty I was yada yada but when you are too intense to be around, being pretty only makes it worse. Now that I’m well, SEASONED, and overweight, damn If don’t get guys, young, old, hot, not hot, women, old young, little kids, just want to get to know me.
So, I’ve decided to lose weight. A lot of weight. Regenerate and freak everyone out. I liked the old me.
I was fearless. I studied ballet, and I taught figure skating. I went horse back riding on Malcom Forbes’s estate! I had an inflatable boat and went rowing on the Cranford River – with my dad or alone. I went hiking alone. I drove all over Texas ALONE. Today, when this photo was taken, I was afraid to step over the railroad tie because the lumbar 5 operation damaged the signal for my leg to lift more than 3 inches.
BUT If I can heal people remotely, as I did today with my friend in Australia by doing a visualization and well, projecting myself to Australia for 3 minutes, then my the GODDESS, I’ll heal my spine and be awesome. So awesome, people will leave me alone in the supermarket!
4:32 a.m., Pacific Time, Monday, May 30, 2022 New Moon Spring Creek, Nevada
Problem was it was Memorial Day so the energy was all focused on remembering FALLEN HEROES. Not a good day to submit a book proposal about a dead fiend from hell!
Tuesday, May 31, 2022 2.3% Waxing Crescent Submitting Proposal to Hay House in the hopes of being awarded a $10,000 advance and a book contract.
The Hay House Writer’s Community Pathways have weekly homework to complete. I fell behind because I was working on the book and book promotion. I’m catching back up. I am doing the assignments for “Aspiring Author” and for the pathway called “Publishing Author”. The cohort I’m in has a June 5, 2022 deadline to submit a proposal. First prize is a $10,000 advance and a book contract. I really want to win.
What I want for my readers is to travel with the Notorious Doc through the Twenty Aerial Toll Houses and examine their own conscious as they hear first hand how the late Harry Leo Duran violated all of his oaths both professionally and spiritually.
I want the readers to take to heart the admonitions about sin and the effect it has on the soul of the sinner and on everyone who comes into contact with the sinner. The book includes passages from the Bible, the Quran, the Hadith, Hinduism, Buddhism, and literature about soul contracts. It forces the reader to travel backward in time to see a man with so much promise lie about almost everything that ever happened to him or about everything he ever did.
Some readers will want to learn what I discovered about the man they swore they knew. Others will want to be titillated by the discovery that a board certified physician with such impressive credentials could be such a despicable and depraved human being. Those that had sex with him may be shocked to learn that they were not special and that they meant nothing to him at all. Others will learn that he lied about his HIV status and that he was deliberately infecting as many men as possible.
Those who sold him designer clothes and shoes and expensive collectibles will be horrified to learn he was penniless and that he had no way to ever pay off his credit cards. Realtors who were eager to take him on tours of expensive homes will be horrified to learn that they were suckered. Realtors should always demand a pre-qualification letter before wasting their time but Harry had a way of bluffing everyone into thinking he was very wealthy.
I want my readers to be shocked, horrified, saddened, sickened, and perplexed. I want them to experience the abuse I endured and then to celebrate at the end with me as I piece my life back together, meet many of the late monster’s friends, sell off his possessions, get my piano that he destroyed repaired so I can play it again, and how I went from relative obscurity to helping set up a 501c3 non profit for the sculpture who Harry commissioned to do his portrait in scrap metal!
I want them to marvel at how I interviewed an oil painter from whom he purchased $9,100 worth of art. I want the readers to grasp that the monster left me a wealth of knowledge he had no intention of leaving me. And I want the reader to feel the power of the Divine that intervened when Harry was trying to get me to commit suicide upon his death and/or that he had planned on murdering me had he not succumbed to COVID. I was saved by a DIVINE COSMIC intervention. And I want the readers to have that point driven home into their hearts that there is a DIVINE force in this world and they need to connect to it. I did and I am alive and well and happy at last.
One of the Late Harry Leo Duran aka NOTORIOUS DOC’s favorite movies was
Mujeres al Borde de un Ataque de Nervios.
If you could have seen me on the phone earlier (Pascha Sunday, April 24, 2022), you would have thought I was the lead character. Why? Because I was trying to tell my friend, Luann, that I had a June 5 deadline to enter the Hay House contest to win a $10,000 advance and a publishing contract. To do so, I have to submit a cover letter and a proposal.
Not one to try to blather on from memory, I wanted to read from one or three successful proposals we, in the PRIVATE MEMBERS only community were given. I KNEW I had downloaded them. What I had named them, or what the original file names were, I couldn’t remember. And, if anyone in their right mind is anything like I am, that triggered a panic attack. DOWNLOAD FOLDER? Nope. The folder I created for all of the Hay House assignments? NOT SEEING IT. Keyword PROPOSAL – nope. OH GOD NO PLEASE!
Breathe, apologize, hang up, break into a sweat. Breathe. Do a keyword search on the site. Nope. NO NO NO! Search the community discussion – someone must have asked this, right?
VOILA and someone answered with a link.
AH HA! I’m not crazy – yet – well, maybe a little – more than a little.
FILE NAME = . . . . And with that I found both files safe and sound WHERE I had saved them in the folder with the Hay House file name. I just couldn’t see them while on the phone.
Uh, oh, but if you’re writing a memoir, one text exchange said, you have to submit the completed manuscript.
AND THAT was what I had stored in the back of my brain. I have to finish the entire book because it’s half memoire of my life with a psychopath and half biography of a pervert narcissist board certified physician!
Keep in mind that I had to download all of the photos and text messages and Facebook Messenger screen shots to the late fiend from hell’s laptop because that is the PRIMARY source material for the book, sort through several file boxes with dumped paperwork that we found laying all over the apartment and/or the condo, and sort through 65 years worth of my late husband’s life to write the book! And Apple’s FINDER isn’t all that great. I often have trouble finding what I need to file the taxes, pay bills, you know, LIFE!
When the Notorious Doc died, and I unlocked his cell phone, I realized I had a book that should become a best seller. Page Publishing advertises on the radio all the time, so I used the contact form and got a reply. Because my book is not like anything that has ever been written, I sent the Literary Development Agent an email introducing myself and the book and added a PDF of the first 38 pages. The agent called and said he had submitted the draft to the review board, and they were very interested in publishing my book BUT the author has to pay all the upfront fees. ALLEGEDLY the review board only accepts a very very small percentage of submitted manuscripts. That said, I still couldn’t afford the up front fees. I also had only just started.
Less than a month later Hay House offered a free Four Day Writer’s Workshop. Free is great. FREE gets me hooked. Before the four days were over, I signed up for their membership to the Writer’s Community and it has been worth every penny and then some!
Within the private site, we have a Facebook like comment area where people within your Pathway can share each other’s homework assignments. THAT is INVALUABLE. It’s where we can promote our books before they ever get underway or while they are well underway and get lots of feedback and constructive criticism and recommendations and pats on the back. Over on the Facebook page just for us, we can use Messenger to share files, or friend each other or do group chats.
It’s within these forums, that I’ve tried to use my years as a college librarian and college library director to share websites. What, for example, is an AUTHOR PLATFORM? I had no clue. Most of us didn’t. This webpage answers that:
I had started this website and blog thanks to Yasmin Boland in March 2021 so step one was done and I have, thanks to all of you, an international following.
I got up the courage to start a Facebook page and it took off. I had a YouTube channel to support my blog so I read up, scanned in photos, launched PowerPoint, created a slide show and spent half a day trying to figure out how to do voice over and by the late afternoon, I uploaded my first video. It also took off.
From the feedback I’ve received I do NOT want to use a voice actress to read the audio version. My voice sounds fine, although everyone said I need to get a headset mic, and some wanted subtitles. I like to ad lib so that might take awhile.
Facebook ads bombed my timeline and I signed up for several free presentations and bought one.
I also started posting about my book and about narcissism on Quora and met a FANTASTIC writer named Valentina Blažek. Not done much with Instagram. One of the people who knew my husband REALLY REALLY REALLY well wants me to get on Tik Tok. The Notorious Doc was killing him by giving him injections of insulin. He’s fine now and we’re beasties! I can’t make this up!
One of the writers in the group posted that we should buy our own ISBN numbers. To do that I found this
My biggest hurdle will be to see if Hay House finds my Tell All Book to be uplifting because like all horror movies and fairy tales, if there is a happy ending – and mine is incredible if I do say so myself, it is both cathartic and it gives victims hope.
We are interested in a variety of subjects as long as they have a positive self-help slant to them—no negative concepts that aren’t conducive to helping/healing ourselves or our planet.
We are not accepting proposals for poetry, quotation books, or children’s books. However, all genres, including those mentioned above, are accepted for our workshop and membership contests.
Note that we publish mainly nonfiction in the areas of Self-Help, Mind-Body-Spirit, New Thought, Metaphysical, Spirituality, Psychology, Health/Wellness, Business, Finance, and Inspirational Memoirs. Subjects include social issues, food and nutrition, education, nature/the environment, alternative health/medicine, money/personal finance, entrepreneurship, tarot/oracle/affirmation card decks, religion, men’s and women’s health, spiritual growth, and fitness.
Tuesday, May 31, 2022 Updated version. Fixed the paragraphs that didn’t get bolded and found another answer!My blog was found by a fellow using Google. He posted a comment on my blog post. Scroll to the bottom of the page. It’s a WOW moment.
And the other day I found an interview with the remarkable and very talented Mary Turner Thompson! I joined her group, the Book Whisperers and I’m off and typing!
I did not choose this title. It is part of a Hay House Writer’s Community Homework Assignment. We get real homework. Lots of homework. Research this. Watch this video. Do a 7 minute Writer’s Prompt. Dig INTO your SOUL and ask
WHY ARE YOU WRITING AT ALL!
Yesterday’s assignments posted. I did the one for Pathway 2 and today I did Pathway 3. I thought I’d “share”. Don’t you just hate the pat response “THANK YOU FOR SHARING”. Can’t people say stuff like
“WOW THAT WAS AMAZING” or “MY GAWD that sucked”. Or “EEWWW I wish you had not told me that”.
SPEAK FROM THE GUT not the script the programmers of our AI universe inputted.
The Gift I have to give is a behind the scenes, fly on the wall reality show like experience of discovering the hidden life of my late husband and what it was like be married to a psychotic narcissist physician. Despite his attempt to try to get me to commit suicide over the years and all the effort he went into trying to leave behind so much horror that I would have no choice but to commit suicide, I not only survived but I am thriving . Readers will come see through my eyes, feel through my emotions, and rejoice with me as I become friends with my late husband’s friends, overcome the obstacles he erected, and go out onto the public stage as “Barbara Unleashed” instead of the chained and imprisoned version he tried very hard to enforce.
The Greatest Gift I can give is to tell victims of narcissistic abuse – emotional, psychological, physical, and fiscal, is to not let it break your spirit. One day you will either escape or your abuser, like mine, will die. Once free, shake off the shackles and burst forth and tell your story. Shout it to the world. Don’t let anyone silence you. Find witnesses and encourage others to talk about how the abuser affected each as well.
Pray for the Angels and the Divine to intervene to end the abuse and to set you free. Once free praise the Angels and the Divine – shout out your gratitude, tell the whole world how the Cosmic Forces heard you, and how they supported you, as you yanked the spikes of pain out of your body, and out of your soul, with their help.
Go forth and find others who are struggling with recovering from years or even just months of living with a narcissist.
The GREATEST GIFT I have to give is the truth that I lived with and suffered at the hands of a physician who was so depraved and so debauched so incarnate evil and yet he did not break my spirit. I am now a recognized energy healer in my community. I’ve made friends, thanks to Hay House’s Yasmin Boland’s workshops with people all over the world. Thanks to Yasmin’s Moonology Challenge in March 2021, I now have a website and blog with an international following. Thanks to the Hay House Writer’s Community Assignments, I how have a promo on my YouTube Channel, an Author Page about the Notorious Doc on Facebook, and a pretty exciting and full life.
I am going to be 68 years old next month in May 2022 and I’m not dead! The Greatest Gift I have to Give is the tell you all that not only am I NOT dead, I’m happy. I’m free at last. And I have a pretty exciting future that I can manifest.
My late husband was a monster and all he manifested was sickness and a journey through the Twenty Aerial Toll Houses in Hell!
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